Silence

As I lay in the dark, the silence of the night engulfing me, thoughts swept over me like angry waves.

In the silence, where nothing can interfere, into deep thoughts I sunk. What is the life I’m living? Who is it have I become?

Into the darkness I stared. Silence. Emptiness. Solitude. There and then I realized, I’m all alone, with no one to count on but myself. No one to lean on but me. No one to trust but ME.

So here I am now, as independent as I can be, never letting myself rely too much on others. But once in awhile, the loneliness swept in. Thinking if I have made the right choice.

Age allows wisdom to grow. Wisdom makes me realize, “no man is an island” they say.

Living a life caring about what other people think of you is like not living at all. You’ll never be perfect in their eyes. Everyone has their own definition of perfection. If you try to be perfect for them, when will you live for yourself?

As life unfolds, you realize those you can keep, and those you have to forget. Be it friends, be it memories. You do what’s best for you, as selfish as it sounds. You start living life for yourself and not for others.

p.s: sorry for the jumpiness. random thoughts fly into my head before bed time. =p

Perfection

“He is not perfect, and neither are you. And the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being a human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He’s not going to quote poetry, he’s not going to think of you every single moment. But he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break…”

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul. -Judy Garland

3 words, 8 letters

<3

It’s not easy, but it’s beautiful.

It requires sacrifice, but it’s worth it.

Thank you for being patient.

Thank you for being understanding.

Thank you for tolerating my nonsense.

Thank you for your trust.

And this is my heart, fragile as it looks, in your hands. This is me… for you.

[Counting down the days till then.. 14]

Fairytale/Nightmare

Sometimes life is a breeze. You feel like you’re living in a fairytale, in a world where everything is perfect. Other times, you feel like your life is a nightmare. One that you really want to wake up from. I guess that’s the inevitable thing about life. Nothing lasts forever… People die, moments vanish, things end. That’s just the way it is.

I’m grateful for the life I’m living. I’m grateful for every single person present in my life. I’m grateful for every single event that had happened.

“The Show”- Lenka

For everyone…

Changes

You have changed. Not really.. Can’t really explain this feeling. Things change, circumstances change, everything changes. Situations force people to do things they’ve never thought of doing before. Bottom line is, something has changed. I feel the difference or maybe, it’s just me.

Everything happens for a reason

“everything happens for a reason”
Is that a phrase to comfort people or is it really true?
In bad times, when things don’t go your way, you’ll want to believe that phrase is true. But in good times, do you think that those things happen for a reason?
I personally strongly believe in that phrase. Honestly, it is comforting. It makes me feel better. Nothing wrong with that right?

Karma

Something bad just happened today. My laptop was stolen. It’s a long story and I don’t really know what happened. *sigh* so now I’m blogging from my phone. Lost some photos in there, lost my mouse, my earphone and some other datas. Hope they don’t use my photos for black magic. So I say karma. Something bad will happen to them eventually. But talking about karma, does that mean I have done something bad before? Hmm… Anyways, as a wise friend said to me “How people treat you is their karma. How you react to it is yours.” So I’m going to take this as an event to avoid a bigger and worse thing that was meant to happen to me. A diversion maybe. I’ll just take this as getting rid of bad luck in the new year. Hopefully there won’t be anymore bad luck for the rest of the year. Whoever took the laptop, may you be blessed, may you be forgiven Just so you know, I forgive you, I mean it.. I’m sad for the loss of my loyal laptop. Whatever it is, I’ve bonded with it. Looking on the bright side, new laptop! Clearing the useless content of the old laptop. Alrighty, take care, be well =)

Happy New Year 2010

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year. Cheers to a new beginning. Put the past into memories and look ahead, daring to take the next step forward. Hope this year will be better than the last for all of us =D

Fireworks to mark the beginning of 2010